Feb. 26th, 2003

Hi Mom

Feb. 26th, 2003 11:18 am
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We are leaving for southern california this evening to visit my mom and attend a religious education conference. It's about a seven hour drive from here to there, and we won't be able to leave until after work. There is a great place to eat and a Motel 6 at the halfway mark, so we'll stop there for the night and finish the trip in the morning.

My mom lives in a retirement community called Leisure World. It is just across from the Los Alamitos Naval Weapons Depot. As you look out over the depot, you see a bunch of grass-covered bunkers or mounds, much like the barrow-downs in Lord of the Rings. I'm not sure what barrow-wights these hold, and I don't think I want to find out.

Leisure World is an interesting place. A lot of little apartment blocks surrounded by gardens and grass. Bunnies hopping around everywhere. It's generally as quiet as a cemetery. You have to be 55 or older to live there. The main street is Golden Rain Drive. Hmmm.

I am bringing Mom a new computer as a birthday present. I got her one a few years ago, but she reports that "it's on its last legs". Apparently something is jammed in the CD drive. I can't wait to see what it is. She also asked for a new printer because "this one's broken--the ink things are empty". I'll bring the old one back and fix it up for the nieces.

I try to get down to see her three or four times a year just to find out what is really going on with her. She has a lot of chronic health problems, and I'm never too sure how she's doing. Whenever I call her, she always reports that she is fine. But then my sister will call and report that she is passing out or short of breath or something. When I express too much concern about her health she tells me to get off her back. She has made it pretty clear that she doesn't want me to manage her life and I try to respect that, as difficult as it sometimes is.

She had a heart attack while visiting New Orleans about 5 years ago, and developed a multiplicity of chronic health problems as a result, partially due to the effects of over 50 years of smoking. When she had the heart attack, she told her traveling companion not to call me, so as not to worry me. After she ended up on life support in the ICU, her friend decided maybe she ought to call me after all. It was New Year's eve.

I spent a month in New Orleans while she recovered. It ranks as one of the most interesting times of my life. My days were spent in the ICU, holding my mom's hand and watching Teletubbies. When they would kick me out in the evenings, I would head to the French Quarter, eating at little out-of-the-way restaurants and listening to great music at seedy blues clubs. It was during that time that I made the decision to become a deacon. It's amazing what you think about when the normal distractions of everyday life are removed.

I could go on and on, but I am really supposed to be working. I was hoping to finish a project before I left today, but I'm just not into it. My mind is already on the road, waiting for my body to catch up. Maybe I'll go home and pick out cd's for the trip.
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I have had this particular job for 10 months now. I received my first performance eval the other day and a nice raise to go along. Generally I'm doing a good job, but have trouble with deadlines.

Here's what's nice about it:

1. I am pretty much my own boss on a day to day basis. I have a real boss, but I interact with her infrequently. This has a down side, since sometimes I need to interact with her more frequently, and she is not available.

2. I set my own hours. I can come and go as I please, within reason. I am expected to put in a certain amount of hours in a week, but how I structure them is up to me. If I want to take a couple of days off, I just take them.

3. Most days I have an office to myself. Technically I share it with four other people, but they are all clinical supervisors and spend their days (or nights) on the nursing unit.

4. Casual dress code. Most days I wear Dockers and a button down shirt, but if I don't feel like it, I can throw on scrubs and a lab coat (like today).

5. People think I am smart. I am the clinical resource person for the ICU, and they think I know pretty much everything. This too has a downside, because I don't know everything.

6. I can wander into a critical situation and help out, and not have to spend the rest of the day documenting what happened.

It's a pretty sweet job, but I miss actually taking care of patients and interacting with their families. I was really good at being a bedside nurse, and I got a lot of satisfaction from it. A deep-down kind of satisfaction that comes from knowing I made a difference in their lives. I don't get that anymore.
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I was drinking a bottle of water a few minutes ago and it tasted flat and stale. I checked the label--no wonder! The expiration date had passed. I poured it out and filled the bottle with fresh water from the tap.

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