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I'm waiting for Arlina's pain-control pump to beep, so I can change the bag and go to bed. At the current drip rate, the bags are lasting about 55 hours, so they can run out at pretty much any time of the day or night. It's a ten-step process to change out the bag and reprogram the pump, but it really only takes a couple of minutes. I have gotten pretty good at doing it half-asleep. All those years of working nights pays off at last.

I end up getting up 3-4 times a night anyway, to give meds, make food or tea, help her to the commode, or just to comfort her. I have no problem getting back to sleep, and I don't have anywhere to be in the morning anymore, so it's not a big deal. I'm tired all the time, but I don't think it's from lack of sleep.

I don't miss work, which is kind of a surprise. I had brought some project stuff home with me when I first took off, but it's still sitting in my briefcase, untouched. And there it will stay for the time being.
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