Giving Thanks
Nov. 25th, 2004 08:33 amI am the cook today. Turkey, stuffing, potatoes, yams, green beans, mushrooms, rolls and a couple of pies. I feel ok as long as I keep busy, and this menu will keep me busy for a while. And cooking always relaxes me--preparing a big meal for lots of people is the best therapy I know.
Things are quiet right now. The only noise is the ticking of the clock. I feel at peace for the moment.
There are so many things I give thanks for this year. To be given the time I had with Arlina, to really come to understand what marriage is about, to know that I was truly loved, and that I did truly love. That she is at peace.
I am thankful for the people who have surrounded us with love. Family, friends who I would have never expected, my friends at LJ. If you give thanks for anything this year, give thanks for the people in your life--they may one day become the very thing that keeps you going.
I am thankful for all my nieces and nephews--who can still bring joy into this house. My littlest niece, hunny bunny, was born the day after Arlina was diagnosed. She started calling me "Ma-mik", which we think means "uncle mike". Her little smile just lights up my heart.
At one of the worst moments of my life up until now, I watched my grandfather as he puttered around in his garden, tending to his flowers. At the time, I just felt that my life was over, and all I could see was pain. He hadn't spoken to me all day.
It was about sunset. I watched him as he picked one of the flowers and turned the stem between his fingers, considering it from all sides. He looked at me, and said, "Life is so beautiful".
And he was right. Life is beautiful. And I give thanks for it.
Happy Thanksgiving!

Things are quiet right now. The only noise is the ticking of the clock. I feel at peace for the moment.
There are so many things I give thanks for this year. To be given the time I had with Arlina, to really come to understand what marriage is about, to know that I was truly loved, and that I did truly love. That she is at peace.
I am thankful for the people who have surrounded us with love. Family, friends who I would have never expected, my friends at LJ. If you give thanks for anything this year, give thanks for the people in your life--they may one day become the very thing that keeps you going.
I am thankful for all my nieces and nephews--who can still bring joy into this house. My littlest niece, hunny bunny, was born the day after Arlina was diagnosed. She started calling me "Ma-mik", which we think means "uncle mike". Her little smile just lights up my heart.
At one of the worst moments of my life up until now, I watched my grandfather as he puttered around in his garden, tending to his flowers. At the time, I just felt that my life was over, and all I could see was pain. He hadn't spoken to me all day.
It was about sunset. I watched him as he picked one of the flowers and turned the stem between his fingers, considering it from all sides. He looked at me, and said, "Life is so beautiful".
And he was right. Life is beautiful. And I give thanks for it.
