56119--easy as one, two, three

[zyzyly]

I was thinking about how I used to walk around midtown and take pictures with my first digital camera--A Canon G3. I loved that camera. It was a doorway to a whole new world for me.


I never did figure out who made these--I think it was someone creatively feeding the bird and squirrels near the little Franciscan church. One day they just stopped appearing, and that was it.

The other night one of my students was giving an IV push morphine injection to an oncology patient in the room where Arlina and I celebrated our last anniversary together. The student was following the protocol, and gave the morphine slowly, over 10 minutes. I sat in a chair in the corner and waited and thought about my history in this room.


I felt an unexpected wave of sadness come over me. Ever since I started journaling here again, I have thought about Arlina more often. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I associate this journal with her journey. Taking pictures and writing here is what got me through it.


The student finished the injection, and I was glad to get out of there. I don't like to linger too long in the past.

Comments

[fletch31526.livejournal.com]

The past is a good place to visit from time to time -- it lends perspective to the present -- but it's no place to live.

[sun-set-bravely.livejournal.com]

Most beautifully put. Yes.

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

true

[laciann.livejournal.com]

The only reason to ever go back to the past is to remind one's self of how far you've come since then. Celebrate the progress and keep moving forward.

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

ya--I don't dwell there, but I am brought back sometimes just for a visit.

[egg-shell.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this touching post. I always enjoy reading your journal - it's real!

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

I tried the fake journal once, but couldn't do it!

[brendamom.livejournal.com]

I am coming up on the 18th anniversary of Dale's death. The mind doesn't remember this, but the heart does.
I have not been back to Louisiana since. But it still floats through my dreams.

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

it's funny--I had kind of reached a point where the memories weren't really conscious anymore, but then they kind of pop up again.

[asakiyume.livejournal.com]

It must be very strange to work in a room with such history for you. I doubt anything will overwrite that...

I love those little slippers and shoes of bread and granola--what a lovely idea.

((hugs))

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

I think you are right, but I really don't mind visiting these places again--it's just (as you say) a little strange.

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

oh yeah--the little bread and granola things--I have a bunch of pictures with different ones--I will have to dig them out and post them periodically.

[(Anonymous)]

The journey is ever forward. I think this sequence of photos from along yours nicely illustrates that. ~A

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

I liked using the pictures to illustrate my thoughts. I have so many images to draw from, and they all have meaning.

[fulguritus.livejournal.com]

I like seeing you post from this journal.
Your story goes on and integrates.

[zyzyly.livejournal.com]

It does indeed.